On Feeling Like an “Adult”

I know that I’ve passed my 30th birthday milestone, and that I should feel like an adult, but oftentimes I feel the same as I’ve always felt: perpetually uncool, with a penchant for staying at home to read books rather than going out clubbing, or whatever the youths these days do. Basically, like my high-school self.

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I mean, my body feels pretty much the same as it always has (I continue to eat relatively well and I work out regularly). I still hang out with my best friend since pre-school, and I ride the grocery cart back to my car to make the shopping trip suck a little less. In my brain, I’m a (much-better-adjusted, less-hormonal) 16-year-old girl, despite owning a business and paying taxes and being married and all that jazz. When Walt and I bought a car by writing a check a few years back, I still had the feeling that I was playing dress-up as an adult. I didn’t believe it, myself.

However, I’ve never felt as much like a grown-up until this week, when a relatively boring thing happened.

I bought a trash can. And I was really happy about it.

Only grown-ups get really excited about trash cans. Can you imagine your actual 16-year-old self getting excited about a trash can? I am thinking back to that age and no, I really can’t. [Read more…]

Nadia & Brian | Austin Engagement Photos

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If you’ve ever wondered, “Does that really work?” when you hear of a guy asking for his waitress’s number, just look at Nadia and Brian as a success story. Ten years ago, Nadia was waitressing when Brian came in with his friends. He asked her out; she wrote down a number for him. “It has to be a fake number,” he told himself, but tried calling anyway.

She picked up.

And so began the start of a beautiful relationship.

I’ve known Nadia since we were kids; her family and mine always share Thanksgiving day together, so we’ve grown up together. I’m so excited to see her and Brian’s relationship continue, especially since they’re getting hitched in a small ceremony in Maui this year (and I’ll be there!)

Here are a few of my favorites from Nadia and Brian’s Austin engagement session, from Zilker Botanical Garden and the Butter Half mural :)

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Hello, Friday

It’s been over a year since the last Hello, Friday, and I think it’s about time we brought it back!

So for those of you newer, uninitiated readers, “Hello, Friday” was a little weekly wrap-up where I’d talk about things that I did, saw, thought, or enjoyed over the week — be it a movie I recently watched, the nail polish color I wore, and so on. I feel as though Hello, Friday may need better structure, but because of the unexpected nature of my life (which can be very exciting sometimes, and very boring other times; it ebbs and flows), I’m not sure if we can count on consistency there.

Let’s dive right in!

Music

Somehow, I was exposed to Tove Lo (probably from the Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 1 soundtrack) and downloaded her entire album. It has been on repeat for days. It’s girly but not sappy; boppy but not poppy. I think the single out right now is “Talking Body,” but the entire album is a gem. (Note: I haven’t watched the entire music video, but like most modern music videos, I’m going to assume it’s probably a little bit racy, especially due to the content of the song. And there is some swearing in the lyrics :) )

Nostalgia

So I was paging through my old journal, as I sometimes do, and found this entry from January 21, 2010:

This may be something and it may not be. But I don’t want to announce my intentions to the world only to have it fall apart later as a failure. So I am quietly stating what I am planning on doing.

I am going to try to do photography as a profession. And work towards it slowly. Baby steps. I’m still going to work at the state (unless I find something better in the meantime) while I build up my portfolio and a website… shoot weddings and portraits on the weekends… and hopefully in a year I’ll have enough stuff to set out, garner clients, and quit my day job.

I don’t know if this is my dream, but it’s closer than what I’m doing now.

I can’t help but be really scared, even though I have a safety net. And that fear is: am I even good enough? Am I wasting my time chasing this?

It’s interesting that so much has changed in the last 5 years, and how much stuff hasn’t changed. I was able to quit my job, though it took much longer than one year. And it took a lot longer than I expected, too, to feel more confident in my work (though admittedly, some days I’m still worried that I’m going to wake up and realize that I’m not sure what I’m doing. This usually pertains to taxes, but sometimes photographs as well). The only thing I can really do is to be prepared and to keep an open mind about things.

And other projects…

I announced (also quite quietly) on my blog a few months ago that I wanted to write a book. It took a while for the wheels to turn and to outline my project, but I’m actually doing this. I hope to write a large chunk during this slow season (it picks back up in March!) and hopefully you’ll follow along. As of right now, the book is untitled, and it has nothing to do with weddings. Ha!

NaNoWriMo it is not; I’ve been trucking away on it slowly, and currently have only a little over 7,700 words. But they’re good words, and I am excited about them! I expect that in future Hello, Friday installments, I will announce larger numbers. Crossing my fingers.

Around the web

• My sister posted this on my Facebook wall, but I’m such a cat lady that I had to share it. Cats smooshed on glass! I have done something similar when “The Cat Scan” was making its way around the web a year or two ago, but I will always love the smooshy hindquarters of cats.

hermione• This was making the rounds on Twitter early this week, but I love it still. A Buzzfeed article that is actually on point and amazing: if Hermione were the main character in Harry Potter. #bosswitch!

My favorite quote: Sensing this might be her last night on earth, Hermione kissed Ron. She didn’t have time to explain that this was not a binding contract guaranteeing a future involving marriage and children. Sometimes a kiss was just that. Because even though she loved Ron then, I am still a little “eh” about that epilogue.

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• I had no idea that I was so old and uncool. Here’s an article by a teen on how to use Instagram. (If you’d like to follow me on Instagram, you can find me here. I’m sure it was uncool for me to link myself, but my target audience is a little older, and maybe you’re just as confused by technology as I am.)

• Beautiful concept art: if Apple made milk cartons, and other super cool imaginary packaging. Great for design nerds, and for people like myself who just really like nice packaging.

• Also, I was really scared that all BBC shows were going to disappear from Netflix streaming, but they re-licensed! Walt loves to re-watch Sherlock over and over, and I had just started Luther the other week, so I’m happy that they’re safe! It was a tense few days as I crammed as much programming into my eyes as possible. (hat tip: Tahlia

• And in case you missed it, I blogged two things this past week:
Texas Capitol Building elopement! // A backyard proposal!

What are you currently binge-watching on Netflix? Do you have any good book or music recommendations? I hope you have a wonderful week!